aiii...reli dun like such feeling...when can i pass thru this stage??
dun like the feeling of being alone...
like hv to settle all things with my own hand...
job? accommodation? transport? money?
i hv to face all these in 1 shock!! arghh, i know im a kid!!!!
cant even stand all of this, which i know is actually a very simple thing in our journey.
i tot i can cope it...but...i feel sad & down when the problem came to me slowly~
from the day i decided to change, i shud hv expect all this already, but i nvr tot the hard feeling came so strong... ='(
for the major problem- transport!!
finally we found a second hand little kancil, but my saving oni stands 20% of the total value...
sumo havent include the insurance, processing & repair fees...
rental & deposit ler?? 1st mth expense ler??
oooh god...
papa mama cant help, i understand. but still sometimes i will put blame on them, 1/200 also cant meh?? huh?? y there is no one can help me?? ='(
papa mama, im sorry, i know i shdnt think this way...
im sorry ='(
Now, things is getting better. at least i settle accommodation problem, i rent a room already, just tat i oni can move in in march...so temporary i'll be my bro's 'ting zhang'....oh no...i hv to slp in living room...argh, tell u i dun mind this at all is fake wan, i mind!! i feel pai seh & pity...i feel to cry.... but wat can i do?? huh??
keep telling myself i must tahan, pretend nth front of u guys...
papa mama, i actually very sad de, i also wish u all will
sim tia to see ur daughter slp in living room...show some concern to me abt the car/money prob...cant help but a concern will warm & encourage me already... am i greedy?? ='(
finally realize im actually not independent as wat i tot previously...
i know im useless...i know...
realize many thing in this event,
who is concern me n who is fake...
i know who loves me & who is fake...
thank you for those who care & love... deeply appreciate!! really!! ^^
and for those who r not...its ok, i wont blame cuz u r not compulsory to help on me pun...
but at least i know i must help on my dears when they need me ^^
today is my 2nd day for my new job,
mmm...diff environment & diff kind of ppl i meet...
well, sure will got abit not used to..but i will work it up...
see they all so geng, also makes me feel i must improve on myself, a strong momentum & motivation to push me forward...im fresh in this dept, im zero now, but i will do my best to fill me up to the top, jia you jia you, arhhhhhhhhhh~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and lastly, i never regret to make this decision!!!! thank you for the train!! ^^