when i am down...

aiii...reli dun like such feeling...when can i pass thru this stage??
dun like the feeling of being alone...
like hv to settle all things with my own hand...
job? accommodation? transport? money?
i hv to face all these in 1 shock!! arghh, i know im a kid!!!!
cant even stand all of this, which i know is actually a very simple thing in our journey.
i tot i can cope it...but...i feel sad & down when the problem came to me slowly~
from the day i decided to change, i shud hv expect all this already, but i nvr tot the hard feeling came so strong... ='(
for the major problem- transport!!
finally we found a second hand little kancil, but my saving oni stands 20% of the total value...
sumo havent include the insurance, processing & repair fees...
rental & deposit ler?? 1st mth expense ler??
oooh god...
papa mama cant help, i understand. but still sometimes i will put blame on them, 1/200 also cant meh?? huh?? y there is no one can help me?? ='(
papa mama, im sorry, i know i shdnt think this way...
im sorry ='(
Now, things is getting better. at least i settle accommodation problem, i rent a room already, just tat i oni can move in in march...so temporary i'll be my bro's 'ting zhang'....oh no...i hv to slp in living room...argh, tell u i dun mind this at all is fake wan, i mind!! i feel pai seh & pity...i feel to cry.... but wat can i do?? huh??
keep telling myself i must tahan, pretend nth front of u guys...
papa mama, i actually very sad de, i also wish u all will sim tia to see ur daughter slp in living room...show some concern to me abt the car/money prob...cant help but a concern will warm & encourage me already... am i greedy?? ='(
finally realize im actually not independent as wat i tot previously...
i know im useless...i know...
realize many thing in this event,
who is concern me n who is fake...
i know who loves me & who is fake...
thank you for those who care & love... deeply appreciate!! really!! ^^
and for those who r not...its ok, i wont blame cuz u r not compulsory to help on me pun...
but at least i know i must help on my dears when they need me ^^
today is my 2nd day for my new job,
mmm...diff environment & diff kind of ppl i meet...
well, sure will got abit not used to..but i will work it up...
see they all so geng, also makes me feel i must improve on myself, a strong momentum & motivation to push me forward...im fresh in this dept, im zero now, but i will do my best to fill me up to the top, jia you jia you, arhhhhhhhhhh~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and lastly, i never regret to make this decision!!!! thank you for the train!! ^^

Feb, CNY celebration =)

being a part time F&N promoter few weeks b4 the new year is arrive.
this job makes us tired like hell, no weekends, no life...
we wonder how ppl can work in supermarket for such a long period.
no offense, but we just dun like such life lor, just us lar i mean. =)

this is the ang pow pack from F&N, given by my agent =)
papa stick this on our wall instead of giving it away, haha...
creative ha :P

chu 1=14.02.10
valentines day
lao gong give me a big bear bear name bebe, haha
thanks ooh lao gong, i like it ♥ ^^

ping vs bebe ^^

chu 1, on our way to bai nian @ lao gong's relative house..
ang pow ang pow, here we come, hahahaha :P

nah, new year mood aka ang pow face, kaka :P

lao gong with his baby in shirt, haha :P

♥ love this ♥ ^^

chu 3, having a gathering with my diploma classmate. =)
meeting my dada at 1st then heading to red box for our gathering...
ahha, is our time again, sing k!! ^^v

she is my classmate during diploma, Tze ling ^^

so glad to meet them after graduate..
well, a good time to spent with them =) ♥
**gonna get more picture from them**

chu 4, heading to equatorial hotel.
lao gong is reading my contract, haha =)

- capture section - !!

^^

then us, - ping & lee bai tou -^^

take #1

take #2

take #3

take #4

attn: lee bai tou

sighh...a lot issue recently...
makes me feel so down n fann!! =(

thank you lao gong for the draw.
i like it especially the background behind me.
it seems implying there is a new hope to ask me not to give up n down mood.
i can feel this positive energy, seriously. =)
and i can still see my niu niu behind me, haha...
lao gong, i know u r trying to make me happy,
i feel it from this figure, thanks ooh..
love you always! always!! ^^

ching's 24th!!

hehe..dont get me wrong. im just posting this for fun.
cuz this cake look very interesting ma, feel ching will like it,
but the taste is solely chocolate nia, common one.

so at last we decided to buy green tea flavor geh, give it a try lor.
but i guess u know this cake is actually choose by lee bai tou,
as they knew my choice is very limited,
besides chocolate, still chocolate, hahaha..
**shy shy** :P

nah...here is 0ur birthday girl,

ms ooi boon cheng!! ^^

venue: bloggers
one of the choice to make a gathering,
too bad they close at 12.30am, too early!! =.=

but the place is reli nice, comfort =)

my lee bai tou is waiting the time to come.
but i knew he is more to waiting for the cake. hahaha...
shhhhhhhh... :P
wonders how big n deep his stomach is, lol....

hooray, finally 12am lu!!
green tea green tea, yumsss :P

arghh...can see cannot touch..
got to wait the birthday girl 1st. kaka :P

here she is!!
happy birthday to u ya,
my dearest ching ching ^^

mmmm...
make a wish, make a wish~~^^
ching: i wish ping can get a better job, hahaha :P

- ching & ping -

ooh, my turn my turn :P

and we wonder y the birthday girl cut cake in this way.
hmmp, special ppl doing the special thing.
well, maybe she just dont like common, ahha..good one!! :p

she always got a great smile, ^^
a potential model for Darlie!!
don't u agree??!

and once again,
happy birthday to you, my dear ^^